Let's see after being mad at me last night this morning he was like, " I will see you after school." Okay. Sure. I went to his house even though I thought we were doing space. So, I went to his house. We hung out. We had sex. And after that there was talking and I was supposed to go to a concert today. But since I was there I would rather be with him.( The only reason I was going to the concert was because I have to distract myself when I am at home alone because I get a tid bit of suicidal thoughts.) Well, he still wanted me to go to the concert and afterwards go straight home. Ouch. Okay. He is having a party tonight and I wasn't supposed to be here because I might ruin it. Anyways, when the people that were taking me to the concert got here he looked pissed. Okay, why, he didn't say. BEfore I left though he gave me his class ring to wear. WTF. So I wore it excited he gave it to me. Went to the concert it sucked huge dick. What the worst part was though there was a guy there that reminded me of Robbie. Only becaue he had almost the same hair,Robbie's is a little longer. He was like super ugly other than that one thing. It reminded me of him. Which was defeating the purpose of going kinda. While there I felt like someone was not only stabbing me in both ears but also in the side with a firey knife of doom. It was horrible. We left early. I came back here to get my bag and he said it was okay. So, I got here and he was distant. I tried giving him hugs and kisses and he just seemed so cold..he didn't smell good either, like smoke. Blah. I stood there expecting something from him, anything. He just said shouldn't you be getting something? I got my bag and coat. Gave him another kiss and hug said I love you and all that jazz and Olivia and them took me home. Well, that didn't work to well since they left and the door was locked and no one is home during the week. So, I was looked out in the damn cold and I'm losing my life. I texted him. He came and picked me up. I half expected him to just get the key from his house and then let me in. But no, he took me back to his house. So, here I sit by myself in his house while he has a party outside. I don't mind a party and him ignoring me..I'm just worried.. Just a great day. But I'm sure it will get SOOO much better, give it time. I'll probably end up bitching about it on here tomorrow. I am so drained..just so tired..I'm getting whiplash because he keeps changing his mind. It's up to him. He is making the choices. What will his final choice be though?